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Jan 28, 2016

The Comparison Monster

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I've dealt with this.

We’ve all dealt with it.

We find ourselves scrolling through Instagram; the feelings of jealousy building, as one photo after the other portrays a perfect family in their flawlessly put tpgether adorable outfits, frollicking in the snow. They’re all laughing - not one of them has a hair out of place and it’s basically perfect. Then you read the caption, and you just know you’ll never measure up to these impeccably dressed women with perfectly eloquent thoughts about life and motherhood and business.

This all hit me harder than ever last year after having my son in May. My world was turned upside down in an instant. All of a sudden I was a momma. That changed everything. If you would have asked me before I had my sweet little boy whether I had a huge problem with comparison or not, I would have definitely said no. But after my labor and delivery didn’t go as planned - that’s another longgg story for another day - I started comparing myself to other moms’ labor and deliveries. I became obsessed with reading other women’s birth stories and how mine should’ve/could’ve/would’ve gone differently if only I’d been stronger. Then the comparison virus started to seep into other areas of my life. I would see other business-owning mommas #rockingit with their new babies while I felt like I was drowning and unable to get anything done. Then my son stopped sleeping through the night. It seemed like everyone else’s babies were perfect sleepers and I was alone, yet again. You can see how this quickly became a slippery slope of jealousy, bitterness, and - yep, you guessed it - comparison.

I decided to slow down, think on what would be best for ME, and join some mom groups. While the community was a game changer for me, I still found myself scrolling through Instagram with a pit in my stomach when I got home. How were these women doing it? How did they find time to curl their hair, take beautiful photos for social media, and write smart and creative blog posts while taking care of their little ones? I mean we’re all given the same amount of hours in a day, right? It just all seemed impossible and I began to question whether I should even be in business at all right now.

I began to realize that my jealousy was stemming from my sense of self worth (or lack thereof).

I started to notice that when I looked at other women’s lives (or their “highlight reels”) on social media, I was looking at them selfishly. It wasn’t about their accomplishments or great things happening in their lives, it was about what wasn’t happening in mine and the goals I wasn’t able to reach. How selfish is that?! These people, who I called my "friends" are celebrating big things, and all I could think was “why can’t I do that?”

I knew something had to change. It wasn’t just about unfollowing certain people on Instagram, or avoiding social media altogether. I genuinely know these platforms can be amazing and inspiring resources, and I didn’t want to give that up completely!

It was about a heart change.

I decided to concentrate on real relationships, starting with and take a few days off social media to refocus. I reached out to other mommas and found that I wasn’t the only one dealing with these feelings. I stepped into my fear and made real friends. I was afraid that if I let anyone know that I wasn’t the perfect momma/business woman, I would look silly and unprofessional. But what I began to realize as I put myself out there, is that we’re all dealing with this. We’re all feeling a bit inadequate and comparing ourselves to others. Social media doesn’t help - we share the good and leave out the bad. That seems obvious, I mean, why would I share a photo of my son screaming or a photo of my incredibly messy home? And that may never happen for most of us, but when we realize that everyone else is also sharing their “highlight reel,” it puts it all into perspective.

Here are the biggest steps I took in order to fight that comparison monster:

  1. Find a community - finding other mommas out there who were in the same season of life was a game-changer. I have an on-going text thread with a few momma friends and it’s such a blessing! We vent, we celebrate little victories, we complain, we pray for each other. It’s pretty amazing and I would say this is the NUMBER ONE thing you should search for after having a baby.
  2. Give myself grace - I’m not perfect. Obviously. But sometimes we get sucked into thinking we are supposed to be perfect. Why? I’m not sure but I do know it’s not good. Take a step back and give yourself grace. We’re all struggling and taking it #daybyday. You can’t be everything to everyone all the time.
  3. Take breaks from social media - Taking weekends off of social media (or longer if you feel you need it) is so refreshing. I can focus on real life and my family with no distractions. I would highly recommend this. And for a little irony, you can use the hashtag #socialmediafreeweekend

Lauren Jolly is a wedding and birth photographer in the Raleigh, NC area. She considers it an honor to photograph people on the most life-changing days of their lives. When she's not behind her camera, you can usually find her with a cup of coffee in hand, snuggling on the couch, watching Netflix with her son, Finn, and husband, Vaughan. 


Jan 12, 2016

having no friends, now i know why i'm really sick...and so are you

So, you may have noticed I switched gears a bit on the Becoming Lola blog. It's a woman's prerogative, what can I say. I will always be a fashion rebel deep down, but the journey to becoming a minimalist at home has made me really face what I am missing beyond my four walls. I think material possessions are masterfully powerful in covering up the crap that you are trying to cover up in your mind. But here's the kicker: when your health starts to turn to shit, you can't really cover that up with concealer or a new dress, now can you? And let's just say I am perpetually chasing after the ideal "healthy" diet, and occasionally flirt with exercise, so I feel confident in that arena, but when it comes to rating my social health...well, then we get into a grey sketchy area. So dressing up and traveling is no longer my priority. If we were to turn this into trendy "new year resolution" jargon, I would say abandoning denial of how small my community is (relationships, friendships, connections, support system, buddy system, et al) is at the forefront like a goddamn glaring zit. And this year, I'm determined to pop that thing wide open and see what's inside. Gross right? Sorry, had to follow through on that metaphor!

So don't go anywhere, and don't get scared. Join me in the challenge. I'll still blog about girly stuff because I do have to put on clothes daily regardless, but I want to get dressed up for reasons I don't currently have. Like brunches with friends, or a girl's weekend vacay, or a date with an eligible bachelor not a life-draining twat. I have worked so hard just to be able to claim "I work hard...I'm working...I'm busy" that everything else has fell to the wayside. And in it's vapid place is roaring social anxiety and a phonebook full of names, but no one to truly call.

I think even when the shiny object syndrome of new year's resolutions has faded, most of us remain are interested in maintaining our health and increasing our eternal youthfulness, so it comes as no surprise the roll of preventive medicine has become almost as important in our society as the yearly checkup. But there may be a key aspect of maintaining excellent health that you've neglected: having several close friends. A bit shocked? Yeah, so was I.
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